go underground/foreign

that wednesday was interesting, to say the least. never have i felt so in tune with the love of God. not in the greatest worship service with the loudest amp or piano. however, i went a whole week thinking it was just me. only i heard from the Lord, and that was okay. i will be honest, it was discouraging at times to know that i felt so moved and no one else did...or so i thought. boy, was i wrong. as i sat in my chair(yes, they put them back. against my wishes)last week during the sermon, bro. stephen asked someone to share something that God is doing in their life(remember that, because it's important for later), and this small boy in the back right corner of the room slowly raised his precious hand. "yes, chase?" "well, bro. stephen, last week, when we were doing underground church, i was really moved and felt God's presence for the first time in my life. i didn't really know what to do, but because i was shown that all i needed is God, i asked Him to be my Saviour." .....and my heart stopped. here i was thinking for a whole week that nobody cared or got anything out of it, and this boy...he was added to our number. talk about encouraging. praise the Lord, whose word is enough.
secondly, remember that question bro. stephen asked? well, here's my answer. goodbye america. hello el salvador. scary, eh? but here i am. surrendered to God's purpose after fighting it for so long. who am i to stand in the face of the Almighty and say no? so i am not fighting anymore. i am turning it all over. and if that means leaving all i am comfortable with, then so be it. hello poverty. hello trials. hello oppression. hello prison. hello death. truly, was it my life anyway? i think not. so, i ask for your prayers. because i am scared out of my mind. because my calling is not one that many kids my age just get and follow, not uplifting myself in any way. Lord knows i'm far from perfect. but my world is changed. my priorities have changed. i follow the Risen King, who took my sinner's cross. and to me, there's nothing better to die for.

"For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain." -Philippians 1:21